18.08.13

Nice date for today , cause a lotss eight number thr :P
well , even i felt alone or lonely..
i will listen song..
relationship to me.. i dun knw hw to face it any more..
I'm very scared and afraid to get hurt anymore :)]

I think won't think that first..
Just be normal for relationship :D
how about friendship? lol..
I also easy get hurt from friendship..
but anyway i just be normal for everythings...

i needed find back before everytime i smile that me...
i will treasure everyone else :)
thankiewww god for blessed me alwys...

很久没写BLOG,发觉我好懒惰哦:P
还记得以前对Daven真的很疯狂，很怀念那时和他疯狂的日子
哈哈，算了　我们也彼此伤害过
而且，我还怀疑过他是否真的在外国　抱歉。。
这都只能藏在心里称为一段很美好的回忆:)
我的BLOG也写过很多人，不过来来去去都是Daven, Xiiao shenz
,jun kang, Panda..
有时候自己伤害过谁　到最后自己就会得到伤心:)
生活真的很RECYCLE的。。

以前的生活不管多好，都很幸福
daven给的感觉就很温馨一样也很浪漫
Xiiao shenz那个是自己暗恋不算呐
Jun kang是前几个星期分手　不过他总是做不到我想要得
Panda和我就像心事朋友一样:D

真多回忆。。可惜自己要把拍拖放一边了:)
我觉得我不适合拍拖，也许自己根本就不会,资格也没有吧:)
我没有把握，也许也害怕拍拖。
从这刻起，不管多寂寞都好我都要自己坚强。

朋友关系，我也搞不好。。
爱情关系，同样。。
完全不懂自己想怎样。。:)
是很多回忆，但都只能偶尔想...

Sometime felt myself so alone and lonely...
it feeling alwys stick with me... :)
I hope got one day ...
A guy will said to me :
Dont be sad anymore , dont be scare anymore
started from now i'm be with you , i knew you're alwys sad lonely ,alone..
but now u're not anymore.. Cause me will bring u to be happy alwys ..
Please giv me a chance and let me hold u to be happy.. would you ? ''

i very hoped one day someone said something like this and type long long to me
type a lots sweet words for me.. awwww that will be sweet ever :)
but only will happened in dream :)
tomorrow monday , open school day.. will be very scared tmr...
i hoped every thing will be fine...

Cause i'm feeling no one friend will accompanny me...
that feeling alwys to me ... hais..
i very stress.. i very dun knw what to do..
Well, i just knew I'm SINGLE now :)
Memories alwys the best to me :D

I will remember who treat me as good :D
Thanksss a lotsss.. :)

Write till here first..

13.08.13

Well.. this year have been happened a lots unhappy things on me..
Relationship..Friendship..
Talked people behind really not a good thing..
I talked my friend behind.. but she did  alots things making me unhappy..
and i no told her she did what thing make me unhappy..
I did not tell her everything that she did on me at all..
i just hope she will understand by self and one day...
But nobody understand...

Sometimes really hard to believe on everyone...
I just treasure when this second who treat me great then
i just treat back she/he as good as she/he treat me...
I really dont knw wanna how .. People only will like me ...
And how people only will stopped to betray me.. and talk my bad behind...
maybe this is life a way that make we grow up..

I really realise now.. no one will understand your feeling..
No one will believe you and help you when u getting problems..
when u getting problemss.. solve by self and think by self...
Cant cry when facing problems.. cause will let people said that you're
too fake...
Strated from now... i'm very scary for trusting everyone..
i hate my self.... i really dun knw wanna how...

Before though got a boyfriend very good..cause can share sad thing
, unhappy thing with he...
but is myself broke this relationship.... but nobody understand why i did
and why i have this decision...even my friend...
i lost myself...i lost my friend...
Being a manusia really hard.... no way who call me is a manusia now...

Before still very trusted a guy.. he call panda..
i very trusted he will help me keep every secrect .. that i told he before...
i said my friend bad to he... he told it back to my friend...
And me and my friend argue awhile.. i not sure is zit
he told my friend that before i said her bad...
but my friend come asked me today...
When i listened she asked me .. i very disappointed on panda...

Secrect is forever wont told us...
but thing already happened.. and alwys happenede dy.. false also me...
i really disappointed when everyone that i very very trusted...
maybe myself also got false... i also dun knw hw to become a people...
i just hope someone will understand me and care me...
it sit hard...
and i also no blame pandaaa.. if really he told my friend
i said my friend bad before...

Cause my friend also got said my bad,,,
well... i really dont understand everytime i very becareful keep
told self dont get wrong at every steps buat at last awlys my false
NO REASON , and FALSE ALWYS ME...
i felt very not fair... i just needed a simple life....
but everythings make me so difficult and keep make me on sad way...

Now... being lonely and alone alwys...
I stay strong that nobody care...i cry just because i stay strong till cant do it...
but also gave ppl said i'm just keep act cry for ppl care...
Primary school i very liked to cry.. even a little things hurt i also cry...
so ppl also through i'm act ppl to care me...
Actually i'm not.... but said out who knw who will listen i said..
who will trust... only self understand onle self knew...

so when primary i really dont have childhood...
sometimes ppl said back their primary things... i also felt like not really
wanna said out my story... i scared they said i'm act agn....
Dun knw why i no act... ppl just keep saying i'm act...
maybe my life way is not so easy to be live one this world....
Sometimes really hope i die on accident.. then i can
become a new me... and everythings started agn....

Strated from now... i really dun knw what to do...
Just being alone.. lonely way..
and nobody care what i do....
nothing muchhh to said anymore...... till here..

08.08.13

IT's sweetie THURSDAY for me :)
Wake up early at 5 o'clock ..very felt tired..
After that waiting other parents family
until 7 o'clock something only going FRASER HILL :D

This is the place that we reached :)

On the way going FRASER HILL ,

i just wanna said i'm very excited for kampung places :P

Cause when i was born everythings around is city life..

I never touch and see before how kampung life.. :D 

So i'm feeling excited :P

Venue for today is ------ :D 

FRASER HILL + BENTONG + BUKIT TINGGI + SUNGAI CHILING

+ JUNGLE TREKKING :D  

Very happy for today :D 

I eat ban mee soup + a glass of hoi nam kopi near Bukit tinggi 

Yummy breakfast :D 

After finished we going FRASER HILL , very hot weather 

and sunshine straight to my surface skin..

But i keep finding trees to stopped the sunshine straight

to my surface skin XD *childish rights?*

At FRASER HILL me and cousin keep finding toilet..

Cause me and her wanna go toilet for so long dy.. /.\

Family they all say so far needed wait until when go another

places only go toilet .. 

Then me and cousin boring , we keep take pictures :D 

we take pictures , show you guyss :D 

We reached :D BUKIT TINGGI :D 

The sunshine so bright XD 

We just non-stop taking pictures :D 

*On the road*

She really mine best sister ever and mine listener too :D 

I'm very glad to have this cousin sister to be with me even everytimes i'm feeling

lonely , sad , angry and dun knw what to do.. :) 

My lovely papa and mama :P They are kind and nice :D 

They care me like care a small baby..everythings so worry about me

just because the reason i'm the one daughter in this family.. But thankiewww a lotss :D

Take a lotsss picturess, me and cousin sister keep worry

ph battery started low.. i'm the most scared..

cause cant take pictures anymore...

there weather not bad gt cold gt hot warm warm :D 

Still got a lots junggle treking pictures.. will upload next times :D 

Today still go play waterfall :D But pictures next times upload :D 

When walking into the junggle i'm feeling excited until i fall down..

I keep holding cousin sister hand XD 

She said you very liked hold ppl hand when walking..

I said felt warm mahhh XD then we keep walk keep take pictures :D 

Gt some pictures is when walking junggle

but actually we wanna find the sungai chiling for fishing place..

Too sad when reached their big door.. it write public holidys closed..

open it on 09.08.13.. so sad... no fishing and no fish watch..

After that parents family they said we clumb inside niahhh...

My another married sister said later polis come caught us XD

Her husbund replied she wont niahhh we said we dun knw words XD

Dun knw what it write XD hahahahha :P Funnny :D 

Well we felt disappointed walked back to another place :D 

Take some pictures with family when they discuss :D 

When junggle treking, 3 of us family :D The girl so nicer ppl :D 

Sure wont leave my mummy alone :D Still gt daddy one at waterfall :D 

But will upload it soon :D 

Another 3 of us :D Ignore my over excited face ><

But very fun when in junggle :D 

3 of uss :D Family relationship :D 

When me and her serious face and get shocked face

watched they clumb the big door XD *this taken by her daddy*

 This is when go inside junggle treking place :D

When finished walked married cousin's husbund help me take it :D

*Thankiewwwwww a lotss*

Love this pictures so muchhh , the sunshine so nicee :D 

But sad case... skin getting black...

awwww.... very fun when junggle treking :D 

Walk walk , talk talk , and then take pictures a lotss :D 

Still got a lotss picturesss will upload soon... :D 

To be continuedd.... So tired now... Write untill here..

Will be continued tommorow and will take some 

troubles thingsss tooo :D 

WELLL, HAPPY HAPPY BIG BIG HOLIDAYS FOR ME I WISH ! :P