26.07.13

Another things happened at 2013 agn..
I'm sowieee that i knew myself is so selfish at all
When started i just wanna care you as my sum si brother
At my family i alwys feeling alone..
Cause i was like nobody chat with me when evrey night..
Feeling alone.. only 2 brothers.. but i need chat what with them.

My sum si cant told them..Not match them..
So pandaa you're just like my another brother..
I remember..
we started chat at facebook June 22
34days spent with you..
I asked you first what happened to your elboww
So we knew each other from your elboww :P

I very happy be with u..
We no argueee we just keep discuss everything
When we did everything we will discuss togeter..
What i needed u will try to give it to me..
I still feeling not very well..
You suddenly no talk to me no choii me..
I remeber u said u wont leave me alone..

I'm more sowieee for my bf and you..
I broke pandaa's heart..
I help u and heal you from emo and sad...
But i make you sad another times...
Sowieeee.. very sowieee...
Yesterday we discuss imagine will happen things
And we still cried last nightsss..

I really mm sek dak everythings with you..
But its idea good for us good for each other...
You're because them to give up your love...
I will still keep you in my heart ever.
I wont forget everything that we talked before..

I'm so glad that God gave me a pandaaa in my life..
Nw i face my bf i'm felt so sowieee to he..
Caus ei already did bad..
And i'm sowieeee that i not going to told he this all..
If i tell everythings will broke and spoil..
He will very hate me i knew...
but if i not tell he, after when he knew he also angry..

So i also not going to tell he.. cause all is secrect..
This is all my false..
Actually everytimes about relationship thingss
Like break or leave me away something..
Alwys happened on 25th or 26th ...
I very scared to open my true heart anymore... :(

I felt i wanna give up everythings...
I dont wanna continue pak tuooo..
I'm so san fuuu... evrytimesss pak tuo something happened
on the same date.. just not different month..
I'm tired enough...
I just wanna focuss mine result and exam ...

my bf he treat me very good i knew...
but he cant give me that feeling that i wanted..
i'm very sowieee...
if i break .. i knew we also cant to be together..
CAuse they will say i break up with mybf cause pandaa..

So i only wanna give up everythings...
If nw end of books... just be normal friend with pandaa
i can do it.. but i needed a long times to comfort myself...
I very blur nw.. i hoped dream forever dont wake up..
Say truth i still not wanna give up on pandaa..
But i should knew one thing is im still with my bf nw..

Single is alwys the best..
I wanna leave a way relationship nw..
I will break up this year.. big holiday..
I will i promised myself..Sowieee for everythings..
I'm selfishhh..i knew..
I asked myself i needed choose pandaaa or my bf..
I just thinking if pandaaa

I'm just like keep make hurt to him more...
If this year big holiday break and pandaa still
Not yet find his that ''another ppl that he wanna care''
I will keep put he inside my heart wait he..
for 2 year... :)

if this big holiday no break.. im still put he inside my heart..
See after 2 year how about it. :)
Nw i only should focusss to care my exam..
Actually nw i also dun knw i wanna care my bf more or not..
my heart still so many thing stunned there..

Rainning day for today...
When rainning thunder sound..
im very scared about it..It reminded me
pandaa with my memories....
A lotss things we chat about thunder beforeeee...
Today at school i still gap pandaa..
Sowieeee.. i really cant control...
Well.. memories alwys in my heart and my mind...
Sowieee...a lotss... sowieeee for everyone...
I felt myself so bad... just like a bad girl ...

If GOD ask me wanna me live or dead
i will choose dead for another new life
Everything start agn..

#iwillmissyouuuever #pandaaa